Dear Diary 9.4

If there’s anything I’m good at, it’s being inconsistent. I promise to not let this blog not become another failed endeavor of mine. Please believe me!

But anyways, it’s Friday! I’m here drinking a Jack Daniels cocktail, like the (almost) middle age single mother that I am. I just ordered some Benihana’s take out, and honestly, I don’t like this for my life at all.

I much rather be pulling up to my beautiful home, in my Porsche. Greeting my wonderful husband and kids. Running a nice bath… drowning my skin in body creams and oils. Followed by my nighttime skincare routine… all while listening to my favorite tunes with a expensive candle lit. Then joining my family downstairs for pizza and a movie night. You know, something really cute and cliche like that.

I still feel like it’s possible. Part of the reason I feel like I HAVE to follow my dreams is to show people it’s never too late. I’ll be 30 years old next year. By this time, most people have it all figured out. Well… at least that’s what they want us to think. But I sure as hell don’t.

The only thing I know for sure is that I want to make people’s lives better. I kinda always have. I want to provide jobs for people that allows them to enjoy their lives with their live-able wages. I want to showcase talented people, that you probably never heard of. I want to not only inspire people but also give them the resources they need to act on that inspiration. I want to show people that you can be a regular, single mother, who struggles with depression and still be who you want to be. I want to raise good human beings, in a healthy household. I want to leave a name and wealth for my family. I want my great grandkids’s grandkids, to still talk about me. “My great great grandmother was……”

I want to leave behind a great story.

I will.

Its been a journey just to get here and sometimes I overlook how far I have came. Even though I’m not where I want to be yet, I can’t say I’m not grateful to be where I am. I always say, in order to get some more blessings, you gotta be thankful for the ones you already have. So I’m very thankful. For my family, friends and most of all, my son. I’m thankful to have a job I’m proud of, a car that a love and to be fortunate enough to still live with my parents. I know most people don’t think that’s a good thing but IN THIS ECONOMY?!?! Ha.

So yeah, stick around. Ima be back.

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