I have been feeling sick since last night. Not physically, just spiritually.
I promise not to turn this blog into a sappy one but again, seasonal depression time lol.
I just feel like this is usually how it goes, I’m doing my thing. Feeling good about it and then boom! Life happens.
This time, my father’s words are the ones I keep replaying in my head. Am I really dumb? Is that why I haven’t made it yet? I know myself better than he does, so of course not. But it’s like, why am I still here in the position I am?
It has me like that kombucha meme.
Maybe? Maybe not?
Part of the reason I feel like I have to follow my dreams, is because I think it’s the only way I will get free from the shackles of my parents.
Not only do I live with them still, I work for my mother. So….. yeah.
That’s why I keep considering the dumb thing. Like, why didn’t I just go to college and get a nice paying job where I don’t have to depend on my parents to live a decent life. Maybe it is stupidity.
Like I said before, I feel like I’m exactly where I need to be. Even though it sucks, I can’t help but to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
At this point, there’s so many reasons why I just can not give up.
One, so I can tell my parents who never respected or believed in me, LOOK AT ME NOW!